I'M ALIVE

Done with exams! Run lola run was ugh, rather lousy imo. Expect more from this space!

gosh i love this.

I don’t know if I should care for a man who made life easy; I should want someone who made it interesting.

— Edith Wharton

WTF

Cant be discharged today. Its worse than we thought it would be.

heard?

sometimes you think. who can take all this bull from you?

Living in a world of my own

Life takes yet another turn. My dad got hospitalised for mild stroke. Hes fine, no worries. Alive and kickin, able to move that left hand like he used to. But no more tough stuff. No more drilling holes for that toothbrush stand in the new toilet like last week. Hes due for discharge tomorrow and everythings gonna be back to 'normal', with a whole lot of precautions to take. Like they say, once it comes by your door, it might make its way back again.

Only the few that were around me yesterday were let in on this. Didnt ring my besties etc. I dont know. Ive been feeling increasingly reluctant to talk bout things that would garner the same response. Not that I'm not appreciative of it. I'm just tired in that way.

CAT POWER 24/7

Cat Power 13 January 2010.

Hmmmm. Leaning towards a yes. Whos up?

I miss.....

you know how sometimes you just cant get your crib done up nicely cuz theres 'new dump' everytime you fix it? What you do is spend hours on interior blogs, wishing for only one of the many.

from way up there you and I, you and I, you and I

You can’t do this. You can’t put one relationship on hold for another. It’s like a call waiting… you leave one person on hold long enough, and they are gonna hang up.

— Unknown


Sometimes what you want the most is what you’re better off without.

— Unknown


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The days of misery. I cant wait to get done with it. But I'm getting scared. 2 modules totally untouched. Still no luck with internships. Damn. How hard can it get. Can I get some help from anyone? Just use your lappy till it dies, I was told. Now, I want a macbook. It'll burn that hole in my pocket again. Ive been thinking of doing 10 random things bout myself. Yeah, because I'm so bored. But everytime I think of one, it loses its way somewhere up there. YP said her brain's a bastard. I dont know how so. Surabaya november 09, Beijing december 09, Hainan march 10. Too many holidays in a year? Why am I complaining? Travel babe, TRAVEL! Once youre out there working your guts out, bye bye to holidays. Now, internship come rolling at my door please.

Love and Life - Albert Einstein

Sometimes in our relentless effort to find the person we love, we fail to recognize and appreciate the people who love us. We miss out on so many beautiful things simply because we allow ourselves to be enslaved by our own selfish concerns.

Go for the man/woman of deeds and not for the man/woman of words, for you will find rewarding happiness, not with the man/woman you love but with the man/woman who loves you more.

The best lovers are those capable of loving from a distance far enough to allow the person to grow but never too far to feel the love within your being.

To let go of someone doesn’t mean you have to stop loving; it only means that you allow that person to find his/her own happiness without expecting him/her to come back. Letting go is not just setting the other person free, but is also setting yourself free from all the bitterness, hatred, and anger that you keep in your heart. Do not let the bitterness take away your strength and weaken your faith, and never allow pain to dishearten you; but rather let yourself grow with wisdom in bearing it.

You may find peace in loving someone from a distance not expecting something in return. But be careful, for this can sustain life but can never give enough room for us to grow. We can all survive with just beautiful memories of the past, but real peace and happiness come only with open acceptance of what reality is today.

There comes a time in our lives when we chance upon someone so nice and beautiful and we just find ourselves so intensely attracted to that person. This feeling soon becomes a part of our everyday lives and eventually consumes our thoughts and actions. The sad part of it is when we begin to realize that this person feels nothing more for us than just a friendship. We start our desperate attempt to get noticed and be closer, but in the end our efforts are still unrewarded and we end up being sorry for ourselves. You don’t have to forget someone you love. What you need to learn is how to accept the verdict of reality without being bitter or sorry for yourself. Believe me, you would be better off giving that dedication and love to someone more deserving.

Don’t let your heart run your life, be sensible and let your mind speak for itself. Listen not only to your feelings but to reason as well.

Always remember that if you lose someone today, it means that someone better is coming tomorrow. If you lose love, that doesn’t mean you failed in love.

Cry if you have to, but make sure that tears wash away the hurt and the bitterness that the past has left with you. Let go of yesterday and love will find its way back to you. And when it does, pray that it may be the love that will stay and last a lifetime.

There are two ways to live your life: One is as though nothing is a miracle. The other is as though everything is a miracle.

There is no mistake so painful that love cannot forgive, no past so bitter that love cannot accept, and no love so little that we cannot start all over with.

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Alot more optimistic. It requires some pondering, I'm not entirely sold.

I wanna get lost from my life sometimes, sit on the side and watch the world go by, I wanna get lost and I don’t know why.

— Everclear


I like to see people reunited, I like to see people run to each other, I like the kissing and the crying, I like the impatience, the stories that the mouth can’t tell fast enough, the ears that aren’t big enough, the eyes that can’t take in all of the change, I like the hugging, the bringing together, the end of missing someone.

— Jonathan Safran